I have been avoiding something obvious about my self for a long time now. Since I cause tendon damage in my foot last year and then dropped a solid oak wardrobe onto my big toe last month … I have fallen into a pit of zero exercise! It’s not something I have been proud of but shame has never been a great motivator for me. Complain that I’m not being active enough and I will go and put my comfy PJs on and switch on the TV.
This morning three things happened and I feel like my resolve has just taken a shot of adrenalin.
- my husband told me that he was worried I was starting to “let myself go”. He didn’t mean it to sound derogatory … just that I had stopped taking care of myself. I wasn’t taking care of my skin (which means it has been suffering lately), I can’t remember the last time I shaved my underarms let alone anywhere else and I am developing a round little tummy. All of this has been eating away at me making me feel unattractive and so even less inclined to try and make the effort because let’s face it … what’s the point?
- I weighted myself today and at 10 stone I am the heaviest I have ever been. Now, I know that is not a lot but at a dinky 5ft4 and a tendency to put weight on only around my middle, I don’t carry it well and I just feel unhealthy!
- I found out today that one holiday company in the UK is starting up holidays to Tunisia again. This was the first holiday we went on together after just 3 months of dating and I have been dying to go back but I’ll be darned if I’m going to be stuck in some tummy controlling swimsuit.
I know image isn’t everything and no woman should ever feel that they have to do something for someone elses benefit. That’s not what I’m trying to suggest. What I am saying is that I am unhappy with how I look and how I feel.
So now I’m going to change it.
Having given myself a lecture on how I have got to get my act together I have contacted my old Zumba instructor and confirmed there are still spaces in her Tuesday class, and I have also signed up for a new “Pound” exercise class which looks tough but it is to rock music so what could go wrong?
Tonight is my first Zumba class in ages. And you know what …? I’m really looking forward to it!