Yet Another Bandwagon

Over the last few weeks life kind of got the better of us, leaving husband and myself feeling incredibly drained and rather touchy. The Motorhome we purchased needed a lit more work doing to it than we had imagined and now, 4 weeks since we took possession of it, it is still not ready for the road.

As a result of both our moods being low we have also fallen well short of our healthier eating plans. last week we had takeout Chinese on Thursday, pizza on Friday and a chip shop takeaway on Saturday followed by a McDonalds breakfast on Sunday morning! Comfort food it may be but I always find that while I enjoy this sort of food a lot more than I should, it actually makes me feel worse afterwards. I feel heavy and sluggish and just generally bleh.

Thankfully things do seem to be looking up as day by day the motorhome is inching closer to being ready and as it does, the mood improves too. This week I am trying to claw our way back into a better meal plan too. Monday was quiche and chips with salad, yesterday we had lasagna and garlic bread with a side salad and today is sausage and mash. Tomorrow we will be experimenting with Quorn kievs which should be interesting considering neither of us have ever eaten Quorn in our lives.

I have also decided to throw a bit of money at the problem and bought myself a Fitbit to try and help me focus on being active more. I work in an office which makes getting any form of exercise during the day rather difficult. My Fitbit arrived yesterday and it seems like it’s sleep monitoring system will be quite useful and today it has been buzzing away on my wrist to tell me to more my ass a bit more. It does feel strange just walking up and down the office while waiting to be taken off hold, I feel like a tiger pacing round it’s territory! luckily I work in a small office so my coworkers know what I’m doing and that I haven’t just gone round the twist!

Fingers crossed we will be able to stay on this particular bandwagon for a while.

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The Shadow Of Doubt

Doubt. It is a terrible thing.

It can make a person reconsider a decision that could vastly improve their lives for ever, just because that person is afraid that something bad might happen. It clouds judgment, blinds you to new possibilities and prevents you from taking that leap of faith.

Sometimes it can be over something truly monuments, like getting married. I never had an ounce of doubt in my mind over getting married to my truly amazing husband, but I know a fair few who did feel a pang of “what the hell am I doing?!?” as they walk down the isle.

However it seems to be smaller, but still reasonably big decisions that cause me the most anxiety from doubting a decision once it has been made. Well, we are both feeling this level of doubt right now. We just bought a motor-home.

We have been wanting a motor-home for a while now, we currently have a caravan which is perfectly good but the car that we use to tow it is a total and utter money pit and hardly gets about 13 MPG. But that car was my husbands favorite toy, he would spend hours working on it, cursing at it and then grinning with pride when he finally got it to do what he wanted it to do.

But now it and the caravan has to go, and although we are gaining an added level of freedom in the form of this motor-home, we are taking a rather large financial risk.

We have no real way of knowing if this thing is any good. we know it has some faults and we managed to barter the salesman down by pointing out some obviously broken (but fixable) things. But there are still so many unknowns and now we are without the 4×4 car that has always been the workhorse in our lives.

It’s doubt over which one was the lesser of two evils. The financial drain of the car and caravan or the unknown of the motor-home.

Yes, this is a material issue and is not in any way intended to reflect against people going through much more serious situations. However to us, this is a big step and I have been going from nervous to excited to down-right nauseous just thinking about it. I’m still not sure if we have made the right decision over this particular one.

I guess we will have to wait and see …

Specifically … Well, It’s Infinite

The events of 2016 have thrown open a whole world of opportunity, choices and options for both of us in 2017. To be honest, having this much choice is mind boggling and more than a little intimidating.

We now have the chance to either renovate our house so that it works better for us to start a family in, move into a house we recently inherited that is in a better area but needs more work doing to it, rent both out and go travelling, sell both and go travelling, sell both and start a business … our options, quite specifically seem infinite right now.

Staying put is safe, but as I said in a previous post, that would just mean us treading water. Living in a place we don’t really feel any connection to and have nothing in the way of a social circle. But to move on from here … well now that’s just scary.

We do both want to move, we want to be near the sea or a lake or a river .. somewhere near water (The Husbat is an Aquarius). But where? This is where our “Plan A” is to buy a motor-home and go a-travelling. My bet is that we will happen upon some place with a house for sale and we will just feel the zing for it instantly.

But taking that jump … that’s tough. We are currently sitting in the doorway of a plane, looking down at the vast emptiness below us and wondering if the parachute will open. Still … nothing ventured, nothing gained and all that jazz.

To infinity and beyond!

Daily Post Prompt: Infinite & Specific (a couple of days late but hey, better late than never)

And Here We Go

Last year life changed in many ways for myself and my partner. We get engaged, got married, lost pets, lost loved ones … it has been a roller coaster to say the least. Now we are faced with a future we are really not sure what to do with. Do we stay put and set our life down in bricks and mortar, or do we flap our wings and fly off towards the horizon to see what awaits us.

Either way or journey – and this new stage in both our lives – has only just started. To say I am nervous about it would be very much an understatement but at the same time this is all very exciting. This little bat now has a whole new sky to soar in.

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